No pleasing some people ... er ... me? ?
I have finally done it - have sent off my forms for childminder registration to Ofsted. Yaay me. Oh it has been an arduous, really quite emotionally challenging task. From ringing up to organise the initial session I had to attend many, many moons ago, to attending the course, doing the tests, asking for the forms, working on them, getting the health form done, organising references .... none of these tasks are particularly hard by the way, all involve knowing how to write, read or speak only ..... and yet it has been months since I completed the first lot of questions - May to be exact. It is now November, a full year since I started the classes. Boggles the mind.
Nevertheless, I am pleased as punch and ever so proud of my great achievement - completing the forms and sending them off. They are winging their way on to Ofsted. Who knows what mistakes and lack of clarity is hidden within .... things to deal with another day. The point is, this leg of the journey to recovery, to solvency, to becoming once more a taxpayer, a contributing member of society - it all begins to be possible once more, now that I have sent off the forms. I am a brave, motivated woman.
And so now I can't sleep due to pure achievement. I have a huge albatross missing from around my neck. The absence of something choking my breaths during every restful moment is keeping me awake. Am reduced to watching Dave. Again. It has been HOURS.
Having reorganised my Crochet magazines, and realising once more that crochet is beyond me ... I am left with just the company of my own mind. Last night flashbacks of Jaan's birth kept me up and quaking in bed. Tonight I am ok. No flashbacks. Good plans for the week. I am awkward, rather than depressed out of my mind ......
Iain and Jaan are asleep.
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