How to tip a Borderline over the edge - stare and point for your own selfish reasons

How to tip a Borderline over the edge - stare and point for your own selfish reasons: Curiosity, amusement, to see if such a state of being actually exists ... that someone can actually have borderline personality disorder, or some other kind of mental health issue, and if it can really make it very very hard for them to function socially. After all, the times I have been in your company, for example, I've been fine, right? Or maybe I have not been fine, have been a real wierdo, or a total freak, or nutty as a fruitcake ---- so now perhaps it makes sense, oh yeah, she's like that because she has a personality disorder.

Another great way to tip a borderline over the edge would be to completely invalidate the person's feelings, fears and disbilities, ignoring what is happening to them, ignoring them.

The thing that triggers my borderline crises are lack of acknowledgement - being ignored or blanked basically, and stress. Pressure. Some people can ignore what happens to me when the pressure builds up, but that does not mean that I can ignore it.

I don't really expect anyone except Iain to work with me to build up self confidence and acknowledgement and stuff. No longer expect anything from anyone other than Iain. My expectations have been criticised and brought under scrutiny enough. If I have this borderline personality disorder, then it seems best I cut out expectations. I'm clearly not skilled in that area. Why go there?

Speaking of going there, for those interested, here are some links:

The MIND guide to BPD

IMO the best forum about

Info about BPD and other PD

A sort of ad hoc guide to the kinds of therapy, practical therapy, that seems to help people with BPD. Ordinary CBT tends to make us feel a bit attacked, certainly I feel attacked when someone tried to CBT me .... this DBT business might help a bit more, I'm unsure as have not tried it formally.

Drugs to look up if you really want to - Venlafaxine, Quetiapine, and Zopiclone.


So far, what I'd say is that the drugs don't make it all go away. I don't even have the best balance of drugs yet - we have only just started trying a new bunch of drugs. Experience tells me it can be months or more before we have cracked it. My coping skills - enhanced though they are by the wonderful Mark Westacott, were not developed enough, robust enough, good enough, habitual enough - whatever, they weren't enough to protect me over the last few months. So I have a lot of work to do if they will ever work.

Did I mention all I can really face is sleep and meals? Am proud to be writing, it's a big deal, but it's probably a mistake too .... baaaah.

Not sure how I will ever face the people in my life again, or venture out into the world again. What a hash I have made of things.