I haven't been writing about my post-natal depression. Not here, not really anywhere. Have not been strong enough. Am not sure I am now, but here goes.Mostly, and above all, it really sucks, really REALLY sucks.
Knowing I have my lovely baby, my gorgeous husband, my lovely home ..... that doesn't change the depths I sink to.
I've been running on smarts since the last stages of my pregnancy. I think my way through the day, each day and still don't know how I have managed to make it through for so long.
I can't express how dark and miserable, ugly and hateful the feelings are. And yet I know women get it, women get through it, and I am strong and have got through other things in the past that have also been deeply unpleasant and hard. I don't know how I will get through it all, of course I don't - I am still IN IT, am not out yet. But my brain tells me it can be done, and I will do it.
I still want afternoons in the sunshine with Jaan.
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oh Nadiya...
i had been wondering where you have been and what you have been up to with baby Jaan.
I am so sorry you are feeling this, and have been feeling this for as long as you have.
I hope you find your way out of it, i'm sure you have a fantastic support team there with you all the way.
hugs hun.
oxox
Hey lady. I am sorry for the blues. Remember we are here for you and love you and Jaan very much. ((((((((((((((((huggs))))))))))))))
So sorry you're feeling so down honey. Big big hugs
Hi Nadiya,
you've done a great job of fighting it. Keep it up! One day you'll look back on it and be proud of your strength and tenacity.
Oh sweetie, I definitely understand what you are going through. I haven't talked about my issues with depression either. It's not easy but keep reminding yourself of your blessings. Have you gone to or considered counseling? I don't really want to but I know it will help so I am going to start going.
Know that you are loved! *hugs*
(((((HUG))))))
I may be a slacker on the board lately but know I would always listen to anything you had to say without judgment ♥ Ashley from Naren's board =D
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